Everytime i masturbate i think about Kanye.
M13, straight (i think), from Kotka, Finland
I’ve never been into dudes, never jacked off to gay porn, never had a crush on a guy. I’ve thought to myself things like “that dude looks good” or “that dude is kinda hot” but i don’t think that’s gay, i see it more as wanting to be them, not wanting to be in them.
Anyways, back to my problem. Recently, last 3 weeks or so when i’ve masturbated everything my brain thinks about is Kanye. I see images in my head of Kanye without a shirt, images of him stroking his nipples and sometimes i can see him holding his dick…
Every time it happens i feel weirded out but i’ve noticed my orgasms have become much larger. Yesterday when i masturbated i closed my eyes to see kanye holding his dick and cumming, it was really large and i just couldn’t stop myself. My weird ass body enjoyed it so much that i shot a large string of cum right up on my face. My primal insticts took over in that moment and i ate the cum pretending it was Kanye’s semen. I regret it now but in the moment it was pure bliss.
This is really becoming a problem for me, i havent been able to talk to my family for a while now because i feel so disgusted at myself. Do you guys have any tips on how to solve this? Thanks in advance.