My ex girlfriends oral sex she gave me has affected me more than I expected it would’ve well over 10 years later.

My ex girlfriends oral sex she gave me has affected me more than I expected it would’ve well over 10 years later.

My ex girlfriend was my first girlfriend and she was the first girl Ive ever done anything with. She took my virginity and was the first person to give me oral sex as well.

Without getting too much into it her oral sex was amazing and she liked to swallow. (This is relevant later on)

It turns out she was a cheater and we didn’t even last 6 months.

Fast forward 12 to 13 years later and my current partner hates giving me oral sex and when she does its not even half as good as my ex girlfriends. She also hates cum and will not swallow.

I’m not saying shes wrong for this but this has caused problems in the bedroom for me. I love my current partner and we have a beautiful family together and this is by no means a deal breaker or anything like that for me.

As bizarre as this sounds, amazing blowjobs with her swallowing is something that I long for. I didn’t know it at the time but while dating my ex girlfriend those were going to be the best blowjobs I would ever get in my life. And at the time I didn’t know that I would fantasize about them so much in the future.

I’m writing this today because I realized I am addicted now to cum swallow and blowjob porn. I do not get it in my real life and am chasing the feeling that I received when I was younger.

I’ve already told my partner how much I like receiving oral sex and things have improved but its to a point where I think I have a sex addiction problem because the longer I go on without having a good blowjob the more porn I watch. I also have fantasized about seeing a prostitute that specializes in giving oral sex to satisfy my longing for a good blowjob.

I’m not asking for advice and this isn’t satire. I just want someone to know my goofy story and get this off my chest. My girlfriends blowjobs from over 10 years ago were so good they still haunt me today.


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