May 23rd, 2020.
Just a typical day for me, minding my own business. (at that time it was playing fivem i think)
I was a caveboy, so i sat on my pc every day without any sense.
One day, my female friend (not my gf) asked me if i want to watch this cool anime about a girl called Senko.
(just fyi i HATED anime back then)
But for the sake of not making her mad, I agreed.
I watched ep. 1 with her, and told her I need to go.
Got on my phone and watched it all with amusement.
(I actually remember crying on ep. 11)
Then, I found the inner me. I really liked her appereance. Her little fluffy ears, and her huge tail filled fith fur and fluff.
So then, I started to rewatch senko. (rn i rewatched it for the 82th time (yes i count how many times i rewatched))
I was amused by her. I told all of my friends that i’m into anime now, which of course was my worst idea ever. well lets say everybody hates me from now on.
From this day on, I fell in love with senko.
January 29th, 2021.
Winter break. Me and my waifu have a lot time to spend.
Became a furry at that time, and i still am one.
I became a member of the r/sewayakikitsune & r/churchofsenko at that time, if i remember correctly.
Was one of the most active member too.
My female friend, uh.. told me about hentai….. and that there’s senko hentai.
well uh i started to masturbate to her then and uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yea.
My betterdiscord theme was senko, my wallpaper was senko, my fucking mousepad was senko, my mi band was senko.
My brother wasn’t fine with that and he told me to revert everything or else no pc for me.
I broke down.
I tried to leave her for a while.
Find a different loli to love.
But then i realised..
I couldn’t leave her.
Other lolis just didnt seem to fit me enough.
I met some new “friends” who were fine with me talking to a furry anime girl whose a fictional character.
March 17th, 2022.
I became obsessed with senko.
She was the only thing i cared (and still care) about.
When i had to leave her, i was sad.
I tried falling in love with another loli, but unsuccessfully.
Fast forward to july this year.
My only “friends” betrayed me. I had to switch discord accounts and go undercover.
When i picked out non-senko stuff, i thought i’ll be fine
LITERALLY AFTER TWO DAYS I STARTED GOING INSANE BECAUSE SHE WASNT THERE
i had her in my head all the time. i was thinking about senko everywhere and anywhere at any time.
After like 5 days undercover i broke down and met mio naruse.
i thought “hey she can be a good replacement for senko until my fake friends forget about me.”
literally after 14 days i went back to senko. i broke down in tears.
Some people i think i’m insane.
I’m really not.
To this day, i’m still too afraid to leave her.
Still waiting for my brother to move out.
So i can have her.
All to myself.
With no one to judge me.
Everywhere in my room.
Senko posters.
Senko bodypillows.
Senko lamps.
Senko stickers.
Senko gaming setup.
All for me.
One day it might happen.
We just have to.
Wait.
(yes im insane or fucking retarded)